{"id":16438,"date":"2023-05-17T12:48:36","date_gmt":"2023-05-17T16:48:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/?p=16438"},"modified":"2023-05-17T12:49:08","modified_gmt":"2023-05-17T16:49:08","slug":"on-returning-2020-2023","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/?p=16438","title":{"rendered":"On returning (2020-2023)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><center><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full\" title=\"Clear proof I have not squandered the past three years of my life.\" src=\"http:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/img\/230517\/0517b.jpg\" width=\"590\" height=\"442\" \/><\/center><\/p>\n<p>First things first: I am incredibly lazy do not lack for well-considered (and self-serving) reasons <strong>not<\/strong> to do something.<\/p>\n<p>This site has always been something I worked on when I couldn&#8217;t do the things I&#8217;d rather be doing &#8212; be it playing video games, napping next to the puppy, or staring into space for hours on end. Any notions of the pandemic shutdown being a golden opportunity to get back into the writing groove died a quick and ignominious death before the first week of lockdown had ended.<\/p>\n<p>The only bit of self-discipline I did observe and stick to was to jump off the treadmill of &#8220;live service&#8221; gaming. While I wasn&#8217;t sure how I was going to fill the next <span style=\"text-decoration: line-through;\">two weeks<\/span> <span style=\"text-decoration: line-through;\">two months<\/span> two-and-a-half years, I didn&#8217;t want to spend them chasing the shiny bauble du jour in <em>Destiny<\/em>, <em>DCUO<\/em>, <em>GTA Online<\/em>, et cetera.<\/p>\n<p>It was one of the wisest decisions I ever made, because the contours of my pandemic period experience rapidly took shape along lines which I hadn&#8217;t expected yet I probably should&#8217;ve. In the half decade leading up to the spring of 2020, I&#8217;d been engaged a multi-front attempt to revisit\/reassess\/reclaim\/reconsider various artifacts from my past &#8212; rebuilding a record collection around stone cold favorites, obtaining representative samples of childhood playthings, consolidating my funnybook collection into trade paperbacks covering the parts I&#8217;d actually re-read on a semi-regular basis.<\/p>\n<p>There was no grand plan involved, just the multimedia meanderings of a middle-aged nerd caught up in a nostalgia-trauma loop. That&#8217;s what has kept me from writing about it until now even though the notion of doing so came to me sometime last fall. My sense of narrative coherence kept demanding a contextual framework for it all, even though it was an impossible task. Diving into the nostalgia middens is a convoluted and very personal process. An old magazine ad for A reminds you of B, the search for which uncovers C which in turn leads to D.<\/p>\n<p><center><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/rxgWHzMvXOY\" title=\"YouTube video player\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/center><\/p>\n<p>Or you just wake up one morning and think &#8220;jeez, I&#8217;d love to play Burning Rangers again,&#8221; and a whole month of tooling around with Sega Saturn emulation flows from there.<\/p>\n<p>I also held back from documenting this process because I didn&#8217;t want to fall into the performative &#8220;did it to blog about it&#8221; routine. That short pipeline lends itself to snarky zingers and shameless mugging to the crowd, which runs contrary to the whole reason I took a header down this warren of rabbit holes &#8212; I was doing it for <em>me<\/em>, not for the fleeting dopamine rush of pageviews and comment section plaudits. I wanted to be able to digest my discoveries, feelings, and reactions on my own time, see how they internally settled, and how they meshed with other shit I&#8217;d absorbed.<\/p>\n<p>And again, I&#8217;m an incredibly lazy person.<\/p>\n<p>The upshot of all this is that I plan on making an effort to spotlight some of the things which helped keep me (arguably) sane during the pandemic era. I think it&#8217;s a good fit for this site, which had a recurring focus on the conflict between nostalgia and reality as filtered through one grumpy old Gen X nerd.<\/p>\n<p>If a greater framework emerges, great, but it&#8217;s not going to be a priority for me here. Expect some repetition when it comes to related items, because if I try to start grouping stuff together, I&#8217;ll never get around to writing about any of it.<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t know where this process was going when I started and I still don&#8217;t, so why start pretending otherwise now?<\/p>\n<p><center><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full\" title=\"...and now nobody does.\" src=\"http:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/img\/230517\/0517.jpg\" width=\"590\" height=\"449\" \/><\/center><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>First things first: I am incredibly lazy do not lack for well-considered (and self-serving) reasons not to do something. This site has always been something I worked on when I couldn&#8217;t do the things I&#8217;d rather be doing &#8212; be it playing video games, napping next to the puppy, or staring into space for hours [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[29,9,61],"tags":[2839,2865,100],"class_list":["post-16438","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-autobiography","category-culture","category-history","tag-blogging-about-blogging-is-a-sin","tag-im-back","tag-nostalgia"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16438"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=16438"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16438\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16441,"href":"https:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16438\/revisions\/16441"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=16438"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=16438"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/armagideon-time.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=16438"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}